9/22/2023 0 Comments Exmormon reddit newThe natives were regularly referred to as "Brown Units" among other disgusting things. Being raised in Washington and not the "Homeland", I was more than shocked to see how "Real" Mormons think. I served in a foreign country and saw first-hand how the racist Utah/Idaho MormonsĪcted. Subject: Horrific Mormon Mission Experiencesĭate: Apr 21 04:31 2005 (updated July 2005) Wonderful.Mormon: Horrific Mormon Mission Experiences This is the debate and thought processes I often have with myself. And not only that, but what does leaving it behind in the dust really mean? I mean, we’re all here! LOL. It’s a wild ride having to work through this aspect of leaving the church behind in the dust. I mean, my nevermo wife is more than understanding and she’s wonderful about all this. I want to be present in my own life daily and enjoy it with my spouse. How ugly this option to hang my decision to be fully happy on the actions of my children relative to the church. I suspect I will not be able to let go of my anger towards the church until all my children are out and non-believing. What a great feeling to observe him standing up for himself now. He’s adulting his own life now or, rather, beginning to now. He finally stood up for himself and his own wants and his own life and choices! This makes me happy. #3 recently negated the option of going on a mission, even though he was strong-armed against his wishes by his mother and her husband to the point of receiving his mission call and setting a date for his farewell. One parent 100% in, the other parent 100% out. That they were completely free of all of this shit if they so choose. Yet I cannot let it go nor attempt to at the moment.Ī large part of the reason I resigned from the church rather than just go inactive was because I wanted to show my children there was another way. I don’t want to live my remaining years with this shit occupying space in my brain. I think I need to attempt to release this anger once again hopefully once and for all. I’m not there yet but I see it in my mind’s eye. Voluntarily thrown away because I trusted the Mormon church. But it doesn’t change the knowledge I have of how much actual time was wasted in the past. I know nothing can heal this completely except time. Years thrown down the drain for an organization that lies and cheats and hoards from everyone and everything. I’ve tried but like any other insanely ingrained habit, I can’t completely let my anger go because I get in a fucking horrible and terrible mood whenever I ponderize what the church did to me, my loved ones, what they continue to do, and what they stole from me (i.e.- more important than my money: my time). I wish I could throw it to the wind and release it forever. I wish I could just let all this anger go. I know the church will never go away, but it’s beautiful to see it struggle some due to the mental fuck games it creates and engages in with everybody now slowly coming more into view as the veil is slowly being pulled to the side and revealing it’s true nature. I left this subreddit for a while in order to curb the appetite for the pent up anger which unfortunately I still harbor towards the church. I feel lucky, grateful, and finally… deserving. The best my life has ever been! I basically must mentally pinch myself often because I can’t believe how good things are now. Life is good now in fact, I must say it’s great.
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